You are not the kindest person, not the most respectful and far from being religious. You are you. You’ve lived your life not the way you wanted. Instead, you have lived your life trying and struggling to survive every single day.
Nobody understood your battles, except yourself. You tried reaching out but all you could grasp was space – empty and black. The emptiness you felt, the hollow and the longing, this are just a few of your hidden shadows.
Remember when you went to the beach alone? You had such a great time. You felt like were part of the tide. There was “oneness” with you and the saltwater. Remember the trek you took on solitude? You were having troubles with your breathing but you’ve manage to stay calm and composed. That was living for you.
You are loved, but you still end up feeling alone. You like it when you’re alone. You often talk to yourself, make silly jokes and laugh on your own. Then you’ll say “at least this laugh right now is genuine happiness”, but was it?
Before the sun sets in your life I want to tell you that I love you and thank you for the good fight. The fight for life is worth remembering no matter what the endings are. This is not the end. The sun may set and darkness may elope,know that the moon and the stars will be there to beam at you with might.
Sleep well luv. Have a wonderful journey. You will be remembered (but not for long).